White Elephant

Okay, it's been a while since I've posted. I get so overwhelmed with everything going on that I feel as if I need to totally go through the last week and write about everything. But, I'm not going to. Storm basically covered it all. We went to the races last weekend (pictures on Storm's blog) and Storm moved (also on his blog.)

Now - for today's stuff. I went to the doctor again today. Remember a couple weeks ago they were telling me I was measuring five weeks further along, but they couldn't tell me for sure? Well, they measured me again and...no change - still measuring five weeks further along. So, they scheduled me for another ultrasound in the next week to two weeks. So, most likely they're going to be changing my due date. We'll see, though. Of course, I'll keep y'all posted. What's funny is, we don't know the sex of the baby or even CLOSE to a date of when to expect it...Storm made a good point - it's like a white elephant party game. You just don't know what you're going to get.

Then - they tell me that I need to stop driving to Greensboro to work. For two reasons, really...one because if something were to happen early I would be two hours away - alone. And if I went to a hospital out there, my insurance might not cover it - that's one heck of a bill to have hanging over our heads! And secondly - I shouldn't be driving those distances alone in case something happens and I'm on a rural route with no phone signal. Both good points. Then, she proceeds to tell me that if I was working behind a desk, she wouldn't be concerned. But because I'm training in a classroom, constant activity and on my feet a lot, I'm overdoing it already. I either need to stop or I'm going to end up on bedrest. I've been having what I thought were Braxton-Hicks contractions and she told me with the symptoms I'm giving her, that's not what they are. It's my body telling me I'm overdoing it ... and it's not worth it. At first, I got the superwoman complex and was thinking "she's crazy, I'm strong enough, I can do it all." However, I then got to thinking about how we have been told for the last three years that we weren't able to have children. Then, it happens - obvoiusly we've been given this opportunity to have a child and I need to swallow my pride and deal with the fact that I'm not invincible...if something were to happen to this baby, I would look back and blame myself for working too hard.

So, that's what's going on. Now I need to find a way to make this all work. I am the only one in my state organization who does what I do...and I have classes coming up....I've got a lot of praying and strategizing to do!!

Oh - one more thing - I thought I was wearing brown pants today and didn't realize until AFTER my class that they were black. I was wearing brown shoes, too - I looked like an idiot and nobody told me! How embarrassing!