January 14, 2009

Something to make my day better.

Today I found out, for the 22nd month, that I'm not pregnant.

This sucks.

BUT....then I look in front of me and want to snuggle in her beautiful curls.She makes me smile, even among tears.

I soooooooooo badly want to make her a big sister and I'm not giving up. But today sucks. You would think that after a total of five years of this crap, it would get easier.

Nope.

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25 comments:

Anna Childress said...

Love and peace to you today, my friend.

Dee said...

I am so very sorry! But you're right..she is beautiful!

Becs said...

Those curls are PRICELESS... so is the little girl who goes with them.

Praying for your continued strength.

Heather said...

Bless your heart Rachel! I can't begin to imagine what you are going through.

Lorelai's hair is BEAUTIFUL!!!

Rach@In His Hands said...

Oh Rachel ~ I getcha, girl. In the 36 months that we tried to get pregnant...it never got easier. (and yes, it is CrAp!)

Praying for peace in your heart and a baby in your arms.

Love ya, Rach

Ohhhh....those curls are TOO sweet. So pretty.

Tara said...

I can't imagine how hard it must be...hang in there!!

What a beautiful girl! I love curls!

Brenda said...

I'm sorry.

When did she get those curls? Just look at her sidebar picture!

Did ya ovulate? I gotta make you that flair!

JAMIE'S CREW said...

Awwww....I am so sorry! No wonder you have a headache today.

And really, the curls??? OMG! when did that happen? She is so darling!

I know you are so frustrated - been there done that. Though it is so hard to accept - God does have a plan for you guys. While you are waiting for the plan to be revealed, and as my step-mom always tells me: "Grit your teeth, it will look like you are smiling!"

bauer zoo said...

i am so sorry rachel. i can't imagine how much that hurts. i wish i lived closer so you could have my shoulder to cry on! you are in my prayers!
amy

j.d. said...

I love you baby...

And thanks to all of you who are praying for us!!!

Rebecca said...

Beautiful hair, wow. Must say I am a little envious over here.

I couldn't imagine it every getting easier.

Jessica P. said...

Sorry to hear that Rachel. I'm going to try this prayer list I hear about and I will put you on mine...
When did Lala get curls?

Anonymous said...

Those curls are so adorable!! I'm sorry you are sad. We'll keep praying too!

Love ya, Julie Z.

Elizabeth said...

I'm right there with you girl! I am so sad for you and totally understand.

Have you ever considered trying out a wholistic chripractor or acupuncturist. there is a lot of research out there that shows they can help infertility. Bc my infertility challenge is my tubes they can't for that area...but with MANY (most) other areas they can help. I have several friends and friends of friends who have gotten pregnant rather easily under the care of a chiro or acup...even after miscarriages & llloonnngg time trying...

I know to some people it's like voodoo and they don't want to hear about it...but isn't it worth it to at least get a 2nd opinion...what have you got to lose at this point?

Rachelle said...

I know how that feel....yes, CRAP is a good word for it....

Saying a little prayer for ya...

Joanne and Deric said...

I am so sorry!!!! But those curls are to die for.....
Keep staying positive!

Kallie said...

love you girl! my heart is with you!

BreAnna Fowler said...

A bloggy friend coined the term, "craptacular". Please feel free to use it in honor of your day. Still praying for ya friend.

In the meantime, can I borrow some of those curls??? Too cute.

Uma and Wil said...

A warm bear hug all the way from Germany. I'm going to get my pint of ice cream out and pop in Beaches or Steel Magnolia, and we can cry together. Then if we were closer, I'd make you get out in the cold to pick up some poopcicles in my backyard, because it's a good distraction. Or you can just stay in and cuddle with the owner of those curls. I'm thinking about you!

~Sara~ said...

Aww, girl... I'm so sorry! But with all these prayers we're all praying, something big is bound to happen! ;o}

As for Lorelei, my goodness! When did her hair get to be so LONG!? Are you using hair extensions on that girl, already? haha :op Really, it is down right gorgeous! She's gonna be a heart breaker!

Baby Kry said...

I am so sorry! I wish I could say it gets easier, but it doesn't ever month is heart wrenching. Keep looking at your little miracle, she will help you get through the day. We are still praying for you!

Lori Hoag said...

Dang it!!!! That just sucks. Dont you wish you could be one of those people who "just doesnt think about it"???

Thank goodness for the sweet things in life, like baby curls. :)

Beth (A Mom's Life) said...

I'm so sorry. I'm praying for you.

Jackie @ Our Moments Our Memories said...

So very sorry...I've been there...am still there right now...and it doesn't get any easier.

But that sweet little girl with cascading curls...oh, how precious. Her hair looks so much like my daughters, just blond. :) Beautiful.

Toni said...

I am so sorry! I am praying for you! I know that feeling and I know that it doesn't get any easier.

Those curls are great!